"The thing is, I never want to work a day in my life." (Me).
“Now, that is what you get from your father.” (Mother).
That was from a conversation with the woman I call Mother; I was convincing her that I will never be a lawyer. I told her I’d rather be a naturist and live technology free than be a lawyer.
Many of you don’t know what I do with my life other than this; and that’s how it should be, but for the sake of this piece, I’ll let you into something about me.
I’m a twenty one year old law student who refuses to be a lawyer.
Why study something if you have no interest in it? At college I studied film, television, journalism and radio. My first year of university I studied radio production because at that time I wanted to be a radio presenter (no idea why).
I passed the year and all was well but the course was ridiculously boring and they forever misunderstood the content I was producing.
So one day, whilst walking to the cinema with my friend (although that is irrelevant) I stopped and said “I’m going to change course, I’m bored of radio.”
When I said it, I didn’t have in mind anything else that I wanted to do, I just didn’t want to do radio.
After a thirty minute conversation (approximately), it was decided that I’d do law seeing as nothing else at university interested me.
There were other courses I could have done and I would have had an easier time doing them. But I have always told myself and people around me that I’d rather fail at something challenging than succeed at something easy (quite deep).
I’m forever reminded that as the eldest of four and the most successful (academically) in the family, I should set a good example for my siblings. I agree, I should set a “good” example (whatever “good” means). I’m always telling “Mother” that I believe I’m already setting a good example for my siblings, but just in case they haven’t clicked on yet, I’ll make it clear.
If this is my last verse.
If I die before I have the chance to whisper these words to you.
Or before the block of writers strikes my mind.
This will be one of the most precious things I’ll ever share with you.
I’ve lived a life but my life is not yet lived. And in my time in this place, I have not yet found the code to life. But, I have realised that nothing is too hard to grasp and everything can be simplified. And the things we usually perceive to be the biggest challenges, are normally really simple.
The example which I see as “good” is what I will give to you, pay attention.
Find what makes you, your happiest. And do it. Also, don’t ever do anything for money.
Don’t get me wrong, you should be paid and I hope you all make more money than I ever will but just don’t make money the centrepiece of what you decide to do.
I don’t know what I’ll become. When asked what I want to be, I always say “A man, with independent thought.”
Maybe I’m already that.
Maybe I’ve already become what I’ve always wanted to be.
I want to do so many things which are unrelated, so I don’t actually think I could be something specific (as in, having a title).
I don’t want to be, I just want to do.
But the world loves titles.
I’m a poet.
Or at least I think I am.